A la my New Year's post, I'm gonna flashback to last summer.

AUGUST 26, 2006:
"13 IMPORTANT THINGS I HAVE DONE THIS SUMMER: (in no particular order)
1. ate ramen until it came out of my ears.
2. changed my plans for senior year completely.
3. met ravelikedave and Ian.
4. experienced ambient energy.
5. hung out with trains.
6. went to the library.
7. spent at least 10% of my time being high.
8. developed an enthusiastic appreciation for doctors who know what they're doing.
9. watched a lot of TV (real-life and internet).
10. listened to "Aqueous Transmission" by Incubus 274 times.
11. bought a parasol.
12. learned enough about my car to yell at technicians.
13. learned that only person i can truly trust is myself."

AUGUST 9, 2007:
13 IMPORTANT THINGS I HAVE DONE THIS SUMMER: (in no particular order)
1. ate ramen until it came out of my ears.
2. freaked out about moving away to school.
3. rode on a motorcycle.
4. met a bunch of cool people.
5. drove around A LOT.
6. ate X and shrooms.
7. spent at least 80% of my time being high.
8. finally got a speeding ticket after a year of not getting caught.
9. spent a lot of time with Justin.
10. had my heart broken by someone i had never even kissed.
11. bought a bong.
12. learned that my mom is the coolest woman who ever existed.
13. forgot that the only person i can truly trust is myself, and was rudely reminded. several times. with a baseball bat.

So I was at this party. And I made out with this guy. In his dead best friend's room. And I didn't know it was his room. And then his dead best friend's brother knocks on the door and goes, "What the fuck are you doing?"

Awkward.

i hate justin, but i like puerto ricans. i can't sleep, so staying up all night is the only option. i hate doctors, but they give me peace of mind. when i make sense of my watercolor thoughts, i'll print them in black and white.

When calling my gynecologist's office:
"Hello. You have reached the Poughkeepsie office of LifeCare OB/GYN. We are currently out to lunch and will return at 1pm. If you think you are in labor, hang up and call the nearest hospital. Thank you and have a good day."

...???

If I was in labor, and I got that recording, HEADS WOULD ROLL.

so i got that job at ritz camera...but i like train for a week then i go on vacation and come back and work.

whatever, i'm almost 18!

my toenails need painting. it's so hot that i woke up because i was sweating. i gotta get up earlier. i need a dress for the awards thingyjigger.

whatever, i'm almost 18!

i want to leave this shittastic place!!!!

this entry makes no sense

i rolled a joint on your face this morning

ps. the kooks are a good band. i cannot stop listening to their freaking adorable british accents, AHAAHAHAHAHAAAAA.

Brandon Boyd Trois by ~excessaccess on deviantART

i especially love a man who can handle his mushrooms. brandon boyd is my celebrity crush, i'm not gonna lie. *drools*

sans identite

so i went to a strip club yesterday with justin and it was funny because i was high off my ass and all the colors were leering at me

and a stripper comes up to me and says "hey we never see chicks here" and then we start talking about comfortable stilettos and waterproof mascara

i like strippers

First letter from Barbara: Hey Peter, I am 13 and I am a huge fan of Harry Potter, I have read all 5 books and have seen all 3 movies. I do not see what is so bad about them. Yes there is magic and dark magic but they r trying 2 put a stop 2 the dark magic in the books. They are not evil books, they are full of mystery and adventure.

I love these books and I am Christian. And I find it offensive that you people are critisizing J.K. Rowlings wonderful imagination. These books are not evil they are wonderful. So what's the big deal? Please email me back. From Barbara

From Peter: Dear Barbara, I agree with you that the Harry Potter series are great books and the movies are very well done. The storyline, per se, is not the problem with these books. Here s the problem: Harry s education, beliefs and actions are wholly and solely based on magic. Harry ALWAYS responds to conflicts by staying true to his belief system. There IS a world of magic out there that most Christian 13 year old girls know NOTHING about NOR SHOULD THEY. You have to agree with the fact that if a person has spent 8 hours a day, 7 days a week for 30 YEARS studying all forms of magic - that person has the right in this country to speak out with authority to the Christian world explaining why Christians need to stay away from these books. I have as much right to speak out against Harry Potter as J.K. Rowling has to write them. Praise God for that!
( uber christians suck...click if you don't mind your jaw dropping to the floor )

----from http://www.crossroad.to/ask-peter/q-a.htm

pppps. one of the best compliments i ever got was when kris crogan was very very very drunk and we were sitting outside the mcdonalds in wappingers at 1am and it was drizzling and you know what he said to me?

"one of my favorite things about you is that you listen. even when i'm drunk and rambling, you pay attention to me like i am the only thing that matters. you make me feel special...sdrbhjfsduhisdfy9df98" then his head kind of fell on my shoulder and he started drooling and i had to stick a cigarette in his mouth and light it for him to wake up.

but that's a good compliment, right?

ps.

okay so i might as well just talk about this because i never do

but i hate girls.

girls are fucking bitches. they break hearts. you tell them you like them and then they're all "i like you too" and then a penis enters the picture and SUDDENLY THEY LEAVE YOU FOR THE EVIL FUCKING PENIS even though i am clearly better at sex and communication and all that because HELLO I HAVE A VAGINA. jesus fucking GOD DAMN IT CHRIST BECCA I FUCKING HATE YOU AND IF I EVER SEE YOU AGAIN I WILL PROBABLY NOT SAY A WORD AND JUST WALK AWAY BECAUSE I STILL LOVE YOU TOO MUCH TO EVER HURT YOU

EVEN THOUGH YOU FUCKING...

YOU JUST FUCKJING BROKE MY HEART.

worse than all the other girls put together.

there, i said it.

NOW SOMEONE GIVE ME A CIGARETTE!

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH I HATE MY TEMPLE ROOMMATES WITH A BURNING PASSION

i should put knackle-toothed nargles in their pillowcases and then steal their laptops.

I was drinking what you drank
still I don't feel good
not at all
not at all

I was having what you had
still I don't feel good
not at all
not at all

I'll prepare to take a stand
normal people talk
about it all
about it all

I decided to make sense
stop acting strange
nevermore
nevermore

Now is that time of year when I have an endless to-do list, my hair always looks stupid and no music sounds good to me. It's just that time where I have some deep-seated, uneasy sense of irritation with everything and everyone around me.

I feel like I should kick my own ass.

I am so angry that I have become calm.

I HAVE ABSOLUTELY HAD IT WITH SCOTT DALY'S FUCKING CHARMS AND WILY MAN WAYS.
(ps. i like qualifiers.)

The guy in the green shirt is my stepbrother (more or less).

i just remembered that time that peter and i ate vicodin on top of a waterfall and he looked like a greek god

do you ever wish you could turn off your memories?

Today has been a day of me feeling left out. I noticed this morning that my three other Temple roomies are leaving each other cute little comments...and I'd been leaving them comments...and not recieving any. And I feel left out. And it may seem trivial, but Facebook is the only way I will know these girls until August when I will be living with them for a year. So it just sucks that I'm already the black sheep and school hasn't even started.

And then later...my family sucks, mostly. Except for my grandparents and the two aunts (and their respective families) that live the farthest away, I am ignored. I feel like I stick out, I feel like I'm the 800-pound gorilla...I feel like the odd man out. I hate it. I will listen to anyone but no one listens to me. My two Connecticut cousins are materialistic and self-absorbed, and so are their parents for the most part, and I can only talk to my grandparents when they aren't nattering on to them about the price of this or that. It fucking sucks.

And then I tried to see Justin, and his parents locked him in his room when I was already halfway there...so I went to see Kates instead. And she was smoking pot with these two guys she's banging in the hot tub...and I went in...and they talked about how they tripped on shrooms the other day while I sat there, and at one point, someone asked me if I had tripped and I answered them...and then it got weird. Like you know when youy're talking and you just get the feeling that people want you to shut up and they aren't paying attention but you don't know if you';re just paranoid so you keep talking and then fade out like an idiot?

...awkward.

So fuck today...I rolled myself a peach joint...and I'm going to go smoke it in my bed, by the window and watch the moon rise.

Good night.

PS. WHERE IN THE FUCKING SHIT IS SPRING?